My Wishlist..

Ever since your childhood u wanted to do certain things.. u wanted to be independent.. although at that time u did not know what independence means other then not taking permissions from parents.. all you wanted was studies to get over quickly and you start earning so that you can own things that so many other people do.. you dont know how you will do it.. all you know is that you wanna do something DIFFERENT.. but still u had a wishlist like all teenagers.. a wishlist of all the things u would love to do when u will GROW UP..

At that age.. the most desired things amongst most of us are - Having friends.. doing crazy stuff with them.. long drives.. talking endlessly for hours.. discussing about future.. discussing about secret love.. trying to cook.. scoring good marks.. wearing expensive branded clothes..etc etc..

When after a decade u evaluate yourself.. you find yourself doing almost everything that you had in your wishlist.. and if you strike out the ones that have been already fulfilled by now you are hardly left with anything more..

then what ?? what next ??

next is nothing but another wishlist.. now the priorities have changed.. and now you desire more materialistic things.. you wish to own a house now. you wish to have a family now.. you wish to be stable now.. and stil.. you want to treasure all that have been attained from the previous one.. but this is a never ending process.. you fulfill one list and you start with another.. there is no end of DESIRE.. the more you get.. the more you desire out of life.. the law of diminishing marginal utility wont apply here..

You know that the more u will run after it.. the more you will loose life.. but still its a rat race.. and you are running like everyone else.. because all that you see is - what will happen in the future if i dont do it today !!

but where is future ?? and what future holds for us..

nothing else but yet another wishlist !!

Chance to a Chance..

Yet another chance.. that’s what I am trying to give myself.. life is all about chances.. u give one.. u take one.. and finally the result is the blend of best chances colliding together..
Since our childhood all we strive for is a chance.. a chance to prove ourselves.. chance to be ahead of everyone.. chance to be earning the best.. chance of being the best.. but amongst all these chances what slips silently from out hands is our life..
By keep giving chances are we not being unfair to our life which deserve a chance to be lived.. here I am hoping for things to get better.. and all I am doing is giving chances.. to myself to people around me.. and to everything.. but what I am not realizing is.. life is slipping from my hands.. and now life needs a chance.. to be content again.. to be charismatic again.. whatever has to happen will happen but why not live in present.. and why not give up the future plans.. because plans are never executed.. they are just a rough outline that u assume would ur life look like.. this is the only convincing that I need at this hour.. and I am trying to get a hold on it..
After a long time a thot has come to my mind by chance.. and I tried not to let it slip ..

Seven Days

When I started exploring the biggest changes that have come across in my life, I could relate to the fact that they have been seen in the smallest of time period.. most of the time within seven days.. Here I am not talking about the material changes which might take a while to occur but intellectual changes which comes with a click.. it takes a second for a thought to strike your mind.. and its takes a minute to realize the difference.. though I am aware that life is a gradual process.. but still there are certain decisions which are taken so quickly that they change you.. they change the person u are or the person you are to be..

One day this girl was dreaming about how she would proceed in life.. What all she has to do in life after being a hotelier.. And in 2 days time she was filling form for BCA… and when she was thinking that she would make her career as a programmer she opted for Economics in just 2 hours.. and finally after many such hourly/ daily thoughts this girl is working in the finance field.. The dream of being a hotelier left somewhere much behind..

This is just one of the events in my life which kind of illustrate the above line.. This holds true for many situations where just a phone call, a small talk or 10 mins have changed life.. and these changes are forever…

A friend of mine.. She came to know about her mothers malady and in 5 days she was gone.. and her life changed.. and then some time later she came to know about her father’s medical crisis and he was gone even before 4 days changing her life once again forever… soo is this not a perfect example of what piece of time is granted to you by your life to bring about major changes in your life is really small..

But do we really assume ourselves to be ready for such changes.. do we really welcome such changes.. It is normal and human to take time to adjust to the changes which life brings about too quickly to ourselves.. but then it is a hard fact that the alteration once bought in existence cannot be reversed.. we should prepare ourselves to accept what life brings to us.. and this is the biggest challenge to fight it and win it.. one who can swim in the stream will be on the bank and the one who would yield to the tides would be drowned..

Relevance of a Person

Caste or person, person or caste.. In the past few months this is the major apprehension that I have seen occupying most of the masterminds around me..
What is sooo relevant about CASTE ??? does your caste anyway helps u in being the person you are or you not are… does by any chance your attributes are a contribution of your caste or is it because of the person you are.. I think one is what one is and that is contributed by the complete surroundings of an individual.. caste has little to do with it..
what is caste ??? is it not the segregation made by none other than us.. when nature created living organisms, it did not differentiate its children based on caste. All the other parameters of differentiation in human are natural.. but this is not natural.. this is manmade.. and it is not mandatory that all that is manmade is good.. it may be designed for some specific purpose which is lost long back.. in the present scenario when we are talking soo much about the development of mankind then do these things hold sooo much of importance.. is it not important to be recognized as an individual of your own kind.. Why can’t we think human instead of caste.. is it not human that is more important than caste..
I remember one incidence where me, my siblings and my mom dad were stuck in a situation with furious groups of other caste.. but then one person from the same group emerged and helped us.. sooo was he a not so acceptable types by them.. he sure was… did he commit a crime by helping us.. he did not.. because he was above HINDU and MUSLIM.. he was a HUMAN..
I don’t know how much relevance my thots hold.. Are they going to influence anyone in any way in their lives.. but what I conceive about life is, that individual means a lot more then the caste.. because it is catastrophic that I have seen people of same caste fighting like cats and dogs and two opposite castes living in complete harmony with each other.. It is worse to see people teaching their kids the same nuisance that they have been living from generations… Those who talk the most about development and liberation believe the most in the opposite.. this has made me draw myself to the conclusion that I am more inclined towards a person then his/ her caste..
I am HUMAN.. I believe in HUMAN!!!